OOOOOH...i knew he Could crack a Smirk on my face

I honestly miss you dude...AND LOVE YOU ...
i CAN'T WAIT till you graduate...so many insiders...and just perusing thru the past...I found some pieces I wish were a part of my present. I miss you and love you. Adam Layne

FROM: "CHAIN HANG LOW"


NOW: "TWAT HANG LOW"



DOES UR TWAT HANG LOW

DOES IS DRAG ACROSS THE FLOOR

CAN U TACK IT ON UR WAIST

DOES IT HAVE A MIND OF ITS OWN

CAN YOU THROW IT OVER UR SHOULDER

IF YOU SMELL IT DO YOU GET KNOCKED OUT COLD

DOESUR TWAT....HANG LOW...



IS THAT UR TWAT??

MAN I SAW THAT THING DRAGGIN ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE PARKING LOT

BY THE WAY IT SMELLS I CAN REALLY TELL WHY MADD PPL JUS DROPPED

BUT WE ALL KNO THAT THAT THING E WORKIN AROUND THE CLOCK

NO MORE G-SPOT



THAT THANG IS GONE

NO PLEASURE ANYMORE UNLESS YOU PUT IN A PARKING CONE

SHE GOT HER TUBES TIED AT THE AGE OF 12 BAY BAY WHAS WRONG

AND ERRYTIME SHE COME AROUND 4 MORE POP ON

U KNO DA SONG



DOES UR TWAT HANG LOW

DOES IS DRAG ACROSS THE FLOOR

CAN U TACK IT ON UR WAIST

DOES IT HAVE A MIND OF ITS OWN

CAN YOU THROW IT OVER UR SHOULDER

IF YOU SMELL IT DO YOU GET KNOCKED OUT COLD

DOESUR TWAT....HANG LOW...



YEA YEA YEA YEAAAHH

SHE'S SOO SLIMY

TWAT SO NASTY THAT THE DEVIL WOULDNT TRY B

Lets See what Happens if I don't think too much

Well. I decided not to think A lot this time...and take a different route. I decided to write down whatever comes to my mind. Whether it's random...offensive...lovely...or just plain dumb...I'm going to write it all down...It requires no thought. Just observation. And I DO NOT apologize in advance if you take offense to anything. lol

1. For some weird reason, i Don't think that anyone will be compatible with me. Idk why...i just think my screws are Loose. Oh Well...life goes on from there.

2. My nephew is the only baby that hasn't grown a weird attachment to me like other babies. He must get it from his father. On the other hand, he LOVES my cat...after all that was his first word!

3. I hate compulsive liars...where is that gunna get you in life? I really can't stand it. Joking around...then admitting it is A OKAY...but carrying a lie on for decades #shootYourself

4.I think that I am wayyy to trusting of people. It's pathetic. Lol...that's how I get caught up and lost in the mix! Then I just start blocking ppl out.

5. Hard to say but, I no longer have feelings for Patrick Francisco. I never thought I would see the day. I wanna say I feel bad cuz he still feels for me everyday, but I can't feel bad for feeling happy right now. This love last from Like March 10 2005 (YES... I KNOW I AM GOOD WITH DATES) until recentley...I really hope Im not going delusional.

6. Facebook has changed my life...NO REALLY...it's weird how it can do that to you.

7. Chesnuts roasting on an Open Fire...Jack Frost nipping at your nose.

8. Why isn't Christmas here...I really wanna do secret Santa...go to the Mayor's Office Christmas Party (and bring Wesley cuz he gets along with any crowd)...being on vakay...do toys for Tots...and have many sleepovers

9. I am determined to get a 4.0 on both semesters b4 i graduate...if that ever happens. I hate Suffolk Financial AID office btw. If it kills me Im gunna get there

10. I am also destined to help a little strudel head out so we both can graduate and be merry!

11. I was just thinking about Matthais McGuffie...he he he...I had the biggest crush you...and YOU KNEW IT! LOL! That was fun in middle school.

12. Talking to Franny usually gets me to thru the day...and talking to her Bestie usually gets me thru the night and morning...#FancyThat

13. Im working a ten hour shift right now #fml

14.Fadil is pretty awesome...just thought he should know.

15. I have some weird obsession with saying JO ANN in a creepy deep nasty voice.

26. I really have to go pee right now

17. Yes I am aware that I jumped from 26 to 17....THAT'S CUZ I CAN!

18. Me and ALLEN pilgrim just changed profile pics...yay! Im sexy now

Shoutout to Friend Number 2

This one I had to double dip into because it is more than a friendship, it's a familyship (or whatever that says)

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Keshia Crepin
Born : Feb 13
Resides in Dorcehster Right Near Allie
Current Location Bed most likely

Hey Keesh Keesh,

So, I've known you all my life...lol I got pics to prove it:

Look at me trying to be like you lol.

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Lol...I was the oldest person in the pic #Fail

Even though our families don't really see eye to eye right now, and it pretty much prohibits us from seeing each other, I will always consider you my first and number one friend. Hence these pics can tell it all! We were always meant to be friends. I remember striving to be like you by trying to follow you wherever you went or trying to pose like you in pictures...or even when it came to getting older, you took to me my first sleepover/college party.

I miss those Regis Floors

To you , it may have not always seemed like such a big deal, but to me I LOVED EVERY SECOND WE SPENT TOGETHER. Getting me thru a hot and sweaty communion...which you know Haitians love to OD AT ---->  

And all the fixins in btwn...I really do miss our friendship. I hope...whenever we finally separate our parents...that we can go back to the old days...accomplished...beautiful...successful women!!!

I love you Keesh, and thanks for always being a great cousin, friend and YOU!

ShoutOut to a Friend

I've decided to dedicate at least 15 pages (to 15 of my friends...or maybe less if I can't think of anything good to say about them)...and I just wanna talk about what they mean to me and how I am thankful for everything they have done for me and contributed to my hectic life.
DONE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER...EXCEPT FOR ALLIE BEING FIRST LOL!

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Alexandra A Chery
Born October 15
Resides: In Dorchester and in my heart
Current Location: Bermuda (HURRY UP AND COME BACK SO YOU CAN READ THIS GIRAFFE...BTW, MY PET GIRAFFE WAS INSPIRED BY HER...DON'T JUDGE HIM)

She's pretty Dope if you could already tell---->

Oh How I love thee Allie. In the past years that I have known you...it's truly become the definition of a friendship. Not all sweet smelling roses...a lot of thorns have to come with the journey but all in all it was ALWAYS WORTH IT! I remember the days when we had no destination at Regis (shout out to one of the whackest schools in America///even tho I attended Suffolk) and we would just make something of our days.
If we can only go thru all the crews...crazy moments and "lucky 2b alive" moments during our year or two of experimentation ...we would consider ourselves NUTS! BUT LIKE I SAID, IT WAS ALWAYS WORTH IT!

High School

BlackOut 2010....yah I know, we're baddddddd

Since the beginning days of High School, until the lengthy days reaching BLACKOUT 2010, we never really grew a part. You are never quick to judge and always had an open mind about EVERYTHING...which made it even easier for us to be friends! I don't think there is any other friendship that can be defined so strong and unique. Every time I think of our friendship (and our mini relationship with JUNBUG...SHOUTOUT TO JUNBUG WHO WILL GET HOLLERED AT NEXT) I could only think of this quote --->"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
Thanks for being a friend...a bestie...my pet giraffe and mostly YOU!
love ya girl!

Don't you just hate when you initially thought you were gonna blog about something, but you ended up indulging in a completely off topic thought?

So i JUST figured out, that while all of this was going on...you were there.
Weird huh?
You were there over looking when I stuck a hanger wire into the the outlet and almost burnt off my finger.
You were there when I was beaten by my mom for smiling...or frownin or just being the typical BA that I never I was.
You were there when all the girls in my 8th grade class got a bf and I was 365 lbs lonely looking on in the corner cuz I wasn't the typically prototype.
You were there when my parents split up and thought it would be wise to broadcast it to their children like an lifetime movies.
You were there when I stopped eating, cuz I thought I was too fat to walk out the house.
You were there when he put his hands on me after he vowed to never do it again.
You were there when he did it again and would stop until my legs turned blue and black.
You were there when I took my child's life away becuase I was a coward and couldn't face the harsh realities of what it meant to grow up.
You were there when you watching him strip me limb my limb ...piece by piece...dollar by dollar for everything that I had.
You were there during my soul search period...where you watched me sleep in the cold and watch my heart shrivel.
You were there when I took everything out on myself...and refused to believe other wise.

YES, you were there...you WATCHED and COMMENTED and subconciously CRITIQUED everything that was going on. You watched me as I developed and drowned in my own blood.
YES, YOU WERE THERE...but now, you are HERE. YOU ARE HERE WITH ME.
YOU DON'T WATCH...COMMENT OR CRITIQUE me from afar anymore...instead you are here craddling and holding my hands...holding tight not to let go, just to keep a smile on my face so that I can be relieved of my sleepless nights...or war bruises...or holes in hearts.
I don't have to worry about being hurt anymore...nor do I have to put up a guard so high so that Im faking it until I make it!
I can take off the layer of my mask that shows me being "her" and not me being me.
And I thank YOU for all of that. In a short amount of time...you came in and turned it around and helped me understand that life is not worth living until you've found someone to stand side by side with you.
Thanks for being that friend Wes.

Those in love often see the world differently and slightly off center.

*~Title Accreds fully go to my fellow Blogger: Josh Sinclair ~*~

I guess being on cloud nine...or being in love because they oftenly equate has it's pros and cons. When your in love, pain feels different, pain looks different, and sometimes pain can only be overcame by the person you are in love with.

Whether it's :

Eros

Eros is probably what most people mean when they announce with a smile, "I'm in love." This type of love covers everything from queasy stomachs and warm fuzzy feelings to strong sensual passion.


Philia

We recognize philia and its meaning from the name Philadelphia, that is, the city of brotherly love. This is the love of friendship, best friends, and the fellowship of being with those people you enjoy.

The Beauty of Agape*

Unlike the previous two types of love, agape is not limited to being held hostage by its environment and someone's perception. The reason why agape can soar above these is because it is based upon the commitment of a decision. It entails the decision to proactively seek someone's well-being. Since it is not a knee jerk reaction nor just a responsive feeling to how I've been treated, agape is capable of acting in a hostile environment where there are no warm fuzzy feelings.

That feeling of pure love can be addicting, and you look and feel the world a lot more differently...more in a fanatically unreal manner. Love can make the immaterial seem immaterial. Love has a funny silent killer tone to it because once it hits you, you don't know how to react.

You start to think of things like "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine."
Love is love's rewards. Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. What brings joy to the heart is not so much the friend's gift as the friend's love.

And so on and so forth. Why does love take a toll on us, when we can't take a toll on love?
After all, it's a man made feeling...we can only create it and let it exist...but of all forms of emotion and expression, love is thee least common.
Why is that? Is it because we are afraid to fall...it's always been said that "You should never fall for someone who can catch you." But in reality, when you fall...the hardest part isn't hitting floor, but it's learning to get up.

Idk why, but I do indeed think WAAAAAAY TO MUCH.

A mask Worth a thousands words...YES, I KNOW...SAY IT! IM THINKING TOO MUCH

Because the mask is your face, the face is a mask, so I'm thinking of the face as a mask because of the way I see faces is coming from an African vision of the mask which is the thing that we carry around with us, it is our presentation, it's our front, it's our face.

                                                           Faith Ringgold

 So this pictured really inspired  me to blog about how many masks me wear and how these masks can lead OUR own personal destruction. I can't really talk on baby MJ's point of view, but I can sooo elaborate on my masks...seeing that I've worn so many and very few have seen whats beyond the multiple layers of masks that I wear.

"A mask of gold hides all deformities."

                                                                                                                             Thomas Dekker

 

Acting deals with very delicate emotions. It is not putting up a mask. Each time an actor acts he does not hide; he exposes himself.

                                                                                                            Rodney Dangerfield

 

 

Although I know it's unfair I reveal myself one mask at a time.

Stephen Dunn

The mask that I am forced to work wear every day an be broken down into many many man phases of destruction.

Mask number one allows the world to see who I'm...what they think I am about AND WHAT THEY THINK IS CHARDLINE THIS IS THE PERCEPTION OF HOW YOU SEE ME.

                                                                      

Mask number two lies beneath the layer that is most commonly used but least commonly criticized.

You would think that the mask that is seen on the outside would be the layer that is criticized the most, but in reality...the 2nd masks----> THE WAY YOU SEE YOURSELF<---- it thee most criticized. When you look in the mirror, you never see perfection, there is is always an external or internal battle that will never cease. This is how My second layer of masking looks.

I can critique it until I feel best, but deep down inside...I will always see this in my eyes.

But who is to say what mask we should exhibit I have been fighting to wear this mask:

But reality only lets me settled in this mask:

So I have no choice but to indulge. Society only shows what should be seen...and what could and must be seen.

Im not too fond of masks...but I gotta wear'em there are many levels that haven't been explored, some that would shock me. BUT WHO AM I TOO BLAME IF IT SHOCKS ME...I SHOULD SHOW THE MASKS OFF THAT COMPLETES ME...EVEN IF IT LOOKS LIKE THIS:

Because in reality, this isn't a mask. It's me. It's who I am. It's what I've become...it's who I wanna be...it's what I can't see. BUT IT'S ME.

Choosing the right mask helps you... We went through many masks. It was very particular leather that as soon as you smudged it, you had to get a new one. We went through about 55 masks.

It's a terrible thing to be alone - yes it is - it is - but don't lower your mask until you have another mask prepared beneath - as terrible as you like - but a mask.

Katherine Mansfield

I DIDN't care for my last post T00 much Sooo

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
- Idk. IM NOT SURE WHAT'S A SCAR OR A VEIN ANYMORE

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
- Pictures AND SCHOOL AWARDS

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
- I snore lol ...PR0BABLY talk...i could prob do both at the same time LORD knows

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
- Many....anything with a beat I can get lost to

5. A PERSON U THOUGHT U WAS GOIN TO BE WITH FOREVER?
- Just Patrick

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
- I would Love my Degree ...a massage.




7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
- I miss . . . Being a Kid - Not My virginity

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
- My BloG LOL..MY DIARY....MY VHS PLAYER

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
- 5'7 or 5'8 ?? You be the judge lol

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
- Yell Yes ! and then i start HYPERVENTALATING ! THEN I REALIZE, IT'S NOTHING...JUST A WHOLE BUNCH OF TIGHTNESS


11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
- ALWAYS

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
- HE WHO SHOULD NOT BE NAMED...BUT HIS NAME WAS ROLANDY...SORRY ASS

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
- BEING ALONE

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
- I DON'T CARE...THEIR PERSONALITY USUALLY STANDS OUT FIRST

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
- I can see ME BEING PROPOSED To...IDK, SOMEWHERE THAT SPARKS OUR MEMORIES




16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
- BOTH...

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
- HAWAIIN ONES...MORE SO THE PINAPPLE

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- CHICKEN CESAR WRAP

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
- IN FLUCTUATES

20. WAT GETS YOU THREW THE DAY
- God and myself AND Wesley...Kitty when he's around.




21. WATS BOTHERING YOU THE MOST RIGHT NOW?
- Im still at work.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSh?
- I'm kinda past that stage

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
- in some places

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
- I dont really do Brands. lol. BUT IF IT FITS, WEAR IT!

30. WATS A GOAL U WANT TO ACCOMPLISH ASAP:
- My Degree and be happy

31. Light Skin or Dark Skin?
- A preference or me? CUZ I YELLOW THANKS

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
- "EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS FUNNY AS LONG AS IT HAPPENS TO SUMONE ELSE

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
- LIBRARY OR MUSEUM OF SCIENCE

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
- Yes

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
- uMM mOm...

37. FIRST JOB?
- Holy Family Day Camp

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
- NOPE


39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
- Of Course ! Every1 deserves Somebdy. oR THEY can join the priest/nunnery

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
-bLOGGING


41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
-NOPE

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
- SMILE AND PERSONALITY

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
- NEEEEVVVVVER !!

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
- This Year? lol . Its pointless. I wont get it anyway lol

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
- uMMM iDK... BUT i AM cOMMITTED TO 8 RIGHT NOW LMAO

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
- NO, BUT MY NAME IS A COMBO BTWN MARTINE AND FOUCHARD (MY PARENTS)




47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
- NASTY AURA


48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
- UMMM EVERYTHING.


49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
- WHATEVER MY HAIRDRESSER USES


50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
- When writing essays...yes...any other day NO


51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
- CCW

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
- WHAT MAKES IT A BAD HABIT?


53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
- Nope...im sure I can do better than envy what you have.


54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
-u may 0ccastionally be scared of me...but then YA


55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
- Um...to a certain extent. (NO FEELINGS INVOLVED)

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
- To an Extent . Yes

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
- idk. Pout. Talk it out to myself in front of the mirror. blog...gym...swim...walk...cry...laugh

58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
- Id Lose 58lbs ! in a Heart Beat !

60. Wats YOUR FAV SEX POSTION?
- the flipping cadooddle noodle

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
- Too Many. I just cant get myself to DELETE !

62.WhoZ Da best u Ever Had?
- uMmmMmMm I gotta say JUJU

63. Whoz ya BFF?
- ALLIE..KAYLA...ALEM..AND VAL

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
- Mac and Cheese ONLY IF its BAKED

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
- iM NEVER REAlly searching for specific traits...i just ended finding out that I appreciate certain qualities about them


66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
- ShaSha, ChaCha, Chard, Chardy, Chardles, Chachou, Charmander, HookTress

67. is there any1 u hate? -
I have a strong dislike for Patricia, Reese, and Scarlet. SEE IF I CARE :)

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
-Umm...Full House maybe idk

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?

- IDK? I just Ignore People. lol.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

- YA, SO I HATE ICE CREAM FYI

71. HAVEE U EVER BEEN MARRIED OR ENGAGED?

-i WAS engaged...in this dream I once had.

72. WAT WOULD U RATHER B DOIN RIGHT NOW?
- Laying down in my bed watching all the Harry Potter's!

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
-Eat with Wes.

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER? -

-oN BeACON HILL with the Progressives smh


75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? - Chesnuts Roasting On an Open Fire ! (okay i stole this from Amanda Smith)

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

- the Humming of the Comp

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
HI c

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
-Carlos Lowery

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?

-Appearence? lmao

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME? -

-rEAD...cHILL...EAT...GYM...IDK STUFF?

81. FAVORITE THING(s) TO HATE?

- iDK....nothing Really

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?

- Spring - Not to Hott . Not too Cold

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY? -

idk...i don't really like candy

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
- Yah!

85.WAT U LOVE ABOUT 4 PLAY -

----um its str8...but it shortens the mans preformance during the game

86. EYE COLOR?
-Brown

87. SHOE SIZE?
-11

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?

- MCDONALDS !

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?

- i don't really have one. Funny, someone just asked me that MAYBE TGIF

90. DO U THINK U CANT FALL IN LOVE CAUSE U R FOCUS ON YA DREAM?

- I can Fall in Love

91. 1 THING U CANT WAIT FOR?

-IM PATIENT...i can't wait for a lot

92. SOMETHING THAT MADE U CRY BUT IT WAS A HAPPY CRY?

- The Ultra SOund -

93. WHEN DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED?

- When the time is right

94. 2 PEOPLE U COULDNT LIVE WITHOUT?

- mom...grandma...kitty...shane...alex...katherine...highalevel.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?

-a mixture of both

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? -

Relationships ! . One Night Stands are Fun And all - lol . but sometimes i want to be able to do the things that lovers do as well

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?

- HI C

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?

- For my family, I WOULD BE A DOMESTIC...but i gotta go into the real world...

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? - the comp screen

Guess Who's thinking TOO MUCH!!

So I was jus sitting down at working thinking...woah!
I ha such a great weekend...didn't have to do anything too exotic or crazy but it was relaxxing.
Now I am back to my 9-5 without a single window to my name...so I started to wonder what it may have looked like. I DIDN'T want to go into the Mayor's Office and look out his view...but I did anyways. It reminded me about how prom was SUPPOSED to look...then I started to dwell on how great prom was...so here's the OFFICIAL THANK YOU NOTE TO THE PPL WHO MADE MY PROM ILLLL and not forgetable...


i WANT TO THANKS ALL THOSE WHO MADE LAST NIGHT...PROM 2007 a memorable one!

1st....to the c/o 2007-08! Yall made the night what it was and i could never forget that!!! All dat dancing AND the moral support! I might as well think the faculty but watev! I've never been surrounded by so many ppl who were so fakingly nice to each other because they looked so nice!! This class is full of actors! ME BEING THE BEST ONE!

I LOVE YOU ALL. LOL

2nd. i would like to thank the ACK'S...yall made the night mad cool! HighaLevel Ladiesz...whatever our name is and was then!
YEAH KAYLA took home the crown for us this year...Im really happy it wasn't one of the other girls...they honestly would still be braggin about it...btw KAY, CAN I BORROW YOUR CROWN FOR VENU THIS SUNDAY SO PPL CAN THINK IT'S MY BDAY? tHE BEACH WAS GREAT...I THINK TO MY RECOLLECTION!!! WHERE IS THAT BEACH BTW? I miss it?

It was the same day I met some of my closests friends and ENEMIES...I LOVE IT.

3RD. To my prom party...i am so sorry i made you mad at times...but the inebriation got the best of me of me...the car ride was excellent...sorry for the slurred speech...and MY OVERALLL IDGAFness the whole night. I really don't understand how I showed up with two prom dates and only one of them was paid for and the other go in

4th. Finally. to my date Christopher Morris-King

YOU made the night for me!!! And i dont think i could ever bring another person that was any better looking...better dancing...most social...i took great prom pics...and wonder and awe it was!!! Thanks for being there when I needed you. Ima hit u up today!

PS...i remember 0nly half of the things i did that night!!! BUT I DO REMEMBER "JUST JAY aka i forgot ...something like Tedyson's cousin. ", MICHAEL VENDRINE....STANLeY DUPLESSy AKA TEDY BEAR", AND ZACK CARDOS0.

WOW, LOOK AT ALL THE EXCITEMENT YOU CAN GET FROM JUST WONDERING ABOUT WHAT THE WEATHER LOOKS LIKE.

I had to let you know who's in my life!

I remember when it was like 8 of us. No direction except for the next available party.
Showing up in our hottest gear...at least 6 deep and when out to eat randomly.
We were a crew. We had a name. Ppl knew our faces.



Then, I guess for some of us, things didn't feel too right.
We seemed as if we only stayed together because we had a crew...when in actuality, we only hit each other up for parties.
Our mind set seemed to change...we started to know who we were.
We saw that life is more than just chilling...drinking...and partying, but we saw that it was more like a sisterhood was in order.
Instead of forcing each other to stay together, we took our separate ways.
We even all went to different schools, but it's funny how four girls came crawling back, as if something were missing the whole time.



I remember when it looked like this:
Kayla and Allie
Chardline, Alemenesh, and Crystal.
Cocoa and Crystal
Alemenesh,Sabine...Sophia....Sophia...Joelle...Tamika
Allie, Kayla and Tamika
Chardline
Valerine, Amanda, CURRY, AND SHYRELL (As far as I know)

And the list could change...but the faces stayed the same.

I am happy for the different changes that we went through...because today. I have more than a crew...more than people to chill and party with...I HAD A SISTER HOOD! Out of my sisterhood, we had laugh, tears, betrayal, offense, chaos, camaraderie AND FOR ALL THESE MOMENTS, I WOULDN'T TRADE IT IN FOR ANYTHING.

Between getting Alemenesh outta da house and finally getting her VAJJJ pounded.
oR Allie and Junbug and there ongoing relationship that we were each a part of
Or Kayla, and her mid life crises (not knowing whether she should be a les or not)
To Val's cookedness, probably always getting us close to being in fights.
Or to me and my "get a bf over night, then suffer later" nasty attitude.

All in all, we've changed! Changed for best!
We still got a lot of growing up to do, marriages to experiences babies to be produced, courage building, self accepting and NEVER ENDING PARTYING (BIG UPS TO KAYLA FOR WANTING TO START A BABY SITTING SERVICE AT DIFFERENT CLUBS).


Love you all
ALEXANDRA CHERY, KAYLA DELSOIN, ALEMENESH ESHETU, AND VALERINE PRICE!

Higha Level Ladiesz to di World.
Next Stop, ATL!!

(IM GUNNA HAVE TO ADD PICTURES OF DIFFERENT FAILED "CREWS" BECAUSE WE HAVE ONE TO MANY STARTING SEPTEMBER 7, 2003. l0l

Thanks for being YOU to ME

Such a small phrase, 6 words to be exact, multiple meanings behind it.

From each word, branches out a new meaning...meanings that are to be sought, meanings that have yet to be found, and thee meaning that brings a serene reality to its knees.

If there was any other person I could be...it would be the person that YOU ARE TO ME.

Give or take a few centuries into the future...if I am allowed to envision so, I see me still smiling.

And if you were to live to 365 years old, I would only want to live to 364 yrs old so I wouldn't have to spend a day without you...sounds cliche and a bit selfish, but my intentions are strictly dishonorable.

Back track a few centuries, lets bring it to 2003-2010. Once, an insolent young spirit , who's trustworthiness gives shinning light of hope to those who see darkness in everyone's soul. Through roller coaster rides of torment, pain, distrust and all out betrayal , you've suffered "deniably" down to the core of your heart. A journey of life in which a soft heart had been slashed...crushed and cavity filled is its new shape.

Just over the horizon, I can see the day where our hearts both take the same shape. Both our hearts will mend and form ONE perfectly shaped heart. Though our pasts never collide...we looked on at the shadow of our hearts as they DRAGGED IN DIRT...TAINTED WITH FALSE ACCUSATIONS...AND STOOD IN THE FACE OF PERIL. (a Bit Dramatic...i know)

Let's bring it to our current century. August 9, 2010. Some of the most soothing words that I could almost here escape your nasally passage. There was plenty Logic vs. Emotion that associated with these words. I logically, I sat there perplexed. I was wondering, HOW CAN SOMEONE FEEL THIS WAY TOWARDS ME IN A SHORT COUPLE OF MONTHS?

Emotionally, thru his stride...or the way in one glance he captivates my soul, it made a lot more sense then logic could ever tell. So I patiently wait as our emotions will one day tie into one.

So, in closing, can't you see what one simple phrase, 6 small words can have different meanings, from century to century and a completely different interpretation then what is meant.

I DO ENTIRELY THINK A LOT MORE THAN YOU THINK.

Maybe I SHOULD just write all day...I'll feel a lot better :)

Intrinsic desires, come within time. Meeting you was nothing short of a miracle, or is it even real?
I met you, on the Public Transit, gazing into your eyes, I felt I had to reciprocate words, but you fulfilled that notion.
Talking to you about every and anything! Not just "any anything" but things we shared in common.
I remembered how your smile mirrored mine, and I felt the warmth of your smile run through each part of my body.
I was to get off a certain stop on the train, but with me being so intrigued into our conversation, I decided to stay. We parted at the Train Station and there went my mind.
Vanishing without a trace, I could not locate you for days, until I saw you once again, and I asked you for your name.
The bewilderment that may have been running through your mind may have been heavy, but in my mind, locating your omni presence is all that I needed.
I once again saw you on the Public Transit, and we shared our commonalities, and interests, as if it were out first time meeting again.
At that point my etiquette did not cross my mind,but gazing into your eyes became constant and strong.
We got off at the same stop and talked, but I noticed your smile more than any solitary word that escaped from your tender lips.
We exchanged a hug before you left, but I brought up another subject,and you decided to turn back.

What joy ran through my heart when you did. After I made another statement, we hugged again, as if we were hugging for the first time.

Alas, until present, I saw you from what seemed like miles away. I called out your name, you seek my face, I walked toward you and had the same smile I noticed you had the first time I saw you. You commented on my appearance, and I felt many emotions of love, like, romance, joy, and acceptance. But, for a while, I felt lust, that soon deteriorated to love. It made my day completely. When you embraced me, it felt as if I did not want to let you go. I gave you my number, being under an illusion that maybe you would call to talk to me. But, only time could tell! We shared our deep embrace, probably know as just hug to you, but meant so much to me.

Now I sit here and ponder about how I have this mixed emotions about you, especially with the common knowledge that your heart is reserved to someone more fairer.

If anything would come out of this reflection, the one thing would BE: Do you feel the same as me,or should I just pass up this dream. Why do I have such a strong interest in you? Why do I feel as if our hearts could mend a make a beautiful noise.

"What happens to a dream defered? Does it sit there and explode? Or,does is shrivel up like a raisin in the sun?"

Which leaves me with the question:Is this real?

i GUESS i Can Sit Here ANd JUST >>blog<< all day About Random thoughts that I don'T ALWAYS FEEL. WELL THIS WAS A LONG TITLE!

The Absence of you.

I lay there motionless, waiting to see if I can feel the Earth Orbit around the Sun.
I feel nothing.
I look into the depths of my soul to see if there is any light, hope, or salvation.
I see nothing.
I take time to ponder on His presence…and see if He can see my fright.
I know nothing.
I wonder if there is another person who can relate to my loneliness and fright.
I see no one.
If there is someone, ANYONE at all, who can help me in my time of need, sorry, and fright;
Now would be a good time.

I say this, and this I say only, the real meaning of my fright and loneliness is because of your absence in my life
I ponder upon your presence in my life, which is yet to be determined.

But, when you do show up, I know I will be saved from all and you will be mine and I will be yours

BoBanny!

I feel almost compelled to SHOUT OUT this person because you can talk to your bffls and they can truly see through and assume you'll be alright...you can talk to your family members and they would think I were crazy for some of the thoughts that I share with them....and you can talk to your Love Interest and they almost feel as if it is their duty to say what comes out their mouths...but rarely do you meet and "mutual stranger" and they give you more encouragement then you've ever felt, but with a TOUCH OF REALNESS.

THIS PHENOMENAL WOMAN comes from a long line of mutual friends....when I mean long I mean it came down to even one degree of separation from each other.
As social as I am, I decided to add her on TWITTER. Very opening and nice. You don't find that in much people...then little by little this little world we call BOSTON....got smaller and smaller...she turned out to know my cousin...and was Besties with a good friend....scratch that a GREAT FRIEND ;).

Then another social network kicked in #FACEBOOK. We talked there...and her aura (for some strange reason) allowed me to open up to her (yikes...that's creepy)but she was more than receptive to it...as if she has known me for a while. She didn't judge...she just gave critical points that can only further help in my development as a strong young woman.
As of right now, I don't know much her past ...present but I can only see success for her future if she continues beings the bright...big...bold...beautiful woman that she is.

Ever since meeting her...there are different outlooks I have shortly explored in my life...such as...HEY CHARDLINE, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL....GET IT WHERE YOU FIT IT!! OR CHARDLINE----> IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO LIVE FOR YOU...PHUCK ALL THE OTHERS ----> AND LASTLY I HOPE TO CATCH ON ----) CHARDLINE YOUR TOO DAMN NICE...LOL...Idk girl, that'll take some time. Oh well. I was even able to confide in her about certain subjects and a certain great person! It's really hard to find ppl like that.
But she keeps great company...and a positive attitude and very goal oriented. HARD TO MEET PPL LIKE THAT RIGHT OFF THE BAT. #SHITsCRAZY lol.

All in all three hip hip horray's for Franny BoBanny!